it happens so quickly
the move from sweet to sour

judgement
closing off my bright eyed-senses

replacing all i hold dear
with convulsions of dislike and raging impatience

temporarily
disconnecting me from my chosen values

how good it is to witness this state of affairs within
brought on by decades of conditioning

and no longer hide in shame
or blame “the system” or another

but look closely and tenderly
at these moments of insanity

and
slowly
patiently
return
home